why is it so hard

It always makes me think of Clint Eastwoods' famous quote: "I know what you're thinking. "Did he fire six shots or only five?" Well to tell you the truth in all this excitement I kinda lost track myself. But being this is a .44 Magnum, the most powerful handgun in the world and would blow your head clean off, you've gotta ask yourself one question: "Do I feel lucky?" Well, do ya, punk?"
 
Between concentrating on breathing and form I don't have a clue how many I've put thru the barrel. Definitely a difference in feel when I load a blank but then it's too late. Shooting paper it's no big deal but when after game I fill all mags and start with a full one and since the cricket holds 14 I haven't had a problem with the scarce game in my area.